I’ve been feeling a little overwhelmed lately. Not really a bad feeling; just a feeling of wanting to slow down. To take a moment to re-think, re-plan. Review goals. I know some of that feeling is due to new work opportunities. It was so good to get such amazing feedback on my portfolio at the recent craft trade show, Stitches. It’s meant new opportunities and some real dream come true moments. However, it’s also shown me that I really am a multi passioned creative.
I tend to think that I can only do one thing. Work in one industry. To focus on one area of design. The truth is I’m a creative that loves to do lots of things. It’s about creative expression. Having an outlet for my love of colour, pattern, drawing, computers, creative software. I just like being creative and making stuff.
Part of my problem is that I try to pigeon hole myself into a specific area – I’m a graphic designer, I’m a surface pattern designer, I’m a digital content designer and so on. I’m all of those things and more. And that’s ok. It’s the reason I work from home. Its why our business works. I realise that now. I overthink far too much. I worry that I should be doing what “the world expects”. So stupid. Being me is what I’m good at ha!
And so this overwhelm feeling has meant that I’ve taken time out to slow down. It’s on top of feeling pretty unwell. Exhausted. Tired. All. The. Time. It’s ok. I know why and it’s ok. It just meant that I need to readjust a little bit and step away in order to get back on track with work (and life). It’s meant a bit of a shift in priorities and a few changes in most areas of my life.
I took time out to visit my family. A long train journey to Kent gave me time to think and plan new designs and products. To figure out what changes needed to be made. My grandson had his 7th birthday while I was there and we celebrated Mother’s Day.
When I got home to my beloved hubby and Cornwall, I realised that being with my family, my grandchildren and just having a small break away was enough to help me re-evaluate. Even though it feels scary to step away when there’s so much work to do, it actually brings more inspiration. It sheds a new light and perspective. It gives a renewed energy. Yes, I’m still tired. Yes, I need to rest more but I know I’m going in the right direction and it all feels fresh and new again.